Great things are more often discovered than invented. If we want to
make something great of our lives it may involve less of our making
and more of our waking up and seeing.
When I was a kid, I used to get up very early. My mother said it was
because I was afraid I would miss something. I must still be worried
about what I might miss because I still get up early. The early bird
gets the worm. I make myself coffee.
I start my day by writing in the pre-dawn darkness and as a result
love to take mid-day naps. To make sure I can sleep in the middle of
the day, I often tie a bandana across my eyes. I'm sure I'm a sight.
But then, I can't see myself. Like a child pulling the covers over
their head, this darkness is my own. What we can't see or won't see is
often a way we call up comfort by dialing darkness.
"The true division of humanity is between those who live in light and
those who live in darkness," wrote Victor Hugo in his novel Les
Miserables. And this true enough. But what is also true is Paul
Simon's reminder that: "One man's ceiling is another man's floor." In
brief then, a man who says he sees the light may still be a soul in
the dark. And any one who wakes in the darkness can be a source of
light.
This is a time of year when parents press their kids into cars to
cruise the night and look for lights. Christmas is not my religious
holiday, but religiously, every year, when I was a kid, and my kids
were young, we went out to check out the lights. Now that my kids are
older and so am I, I can't help but connect this time of year with an
earlier time. Sometimes when you look at lights you can feel life's
encroaching darkness. And feel your heart tug backward to touch
memories of a lighter time.
Faith is a light. When we can find our faith, we can lead ourselves
through almost any darkness. Hanukah is the festival of lights. It is
a reminder of the triumph of faith over doubt. The Hanukah Menorah,
that Jews are to light at this time of year, is to be put in the
window so that others can see the light. And bear witness that faith
still burns. And faith burns brightest when it is a shared light.
The law in Jewish tradition is that the Hanukah Menorah cannot be used
to read by or light your way. It is a light whose service has a higher
purpose. That this is a season of lights is not a coincidence, except
as coincidence is God's cloak of anonymity.
We all draw our cloaks and coats tightly around us in an effort to
stay warm. But on life's journey, no matter how warmly we're dressed,
little warms us as much as having a light to head toward. When
winter's darkness envelops us it is a fire's light as much as its
warmth that warms us. Mentally, emotionally, and physically we bond
light with warmth, and the holiday lights warm the soul as much as the
poor soul.
When some people enter places of prayer their first act is to light a
candle. Lighting candles can lead us into prayer. Light can lead us
toward THE LIGHT. Any of us are bright who know we are a reflection of
God's light. So light a candle. Lighten up. Light is a work of art on
the canvas of life's darkness. If you really want to see to a man's
soul observe him attempting to put up a string of Christmas lights.
Some people believe that each of us have an aura, a surrounding ray of
light emanating from us. I once had my picture taken by a person who
said their camera could photograph auras. I still have the picture. It
looks like a Polaroid shot that was peeled too early from the
developing process. I look like the boxing promoter Don King with
shocks of color shooting up out of my hair. I keep the picture tacked
up on a wall to remind myself that I have an aura. And a sense of
humor.
I've met people who say they can read auras. They say they can tell
who we are and how we are doing by the light surrounding us. I don't
doubt this. Faith is visible. As is despair.
"Don't keep your light under a bushel," says an old American proverb
and scripture tells we are to be "a light unto the nations." None of
this, however, is an excuse to put a spotlight on our selves. It is
rather a reminder that most of us spend a portion of our day in the
darkness of our fears, insecurities, and doubts. Even while we sleep
our fears, insecurities, and doubts do not necessarily slumber. But
despite days as dark as night, inside each of us there is a light.
Though life doesn't always leave on the night-light, we are each a
spark struck by God, and ever soul is aglow - allowing not
only our selves but others to find their way.
While we should guard our soul's light, we must also guard the
darkness, for as surely as our soul bears God's signature, the
darkness has also been paint brushed by God. Darkness is not by nature
evil anymore than those who have claimed to see "the light" are always
agents of light. Light is not the absence of darkness but a play
staged against the darkness.
Every day is like a beautiful woman taking her time deciding what to
wear, slipping from one gown into another, now in light, now in
darkness. Then, dressed in stars and in the manner of a patient lover,
the night languishes and listens. For the night has ears. Who among us
has not talked to darkness or prayed in the night? "Hello darkness, my
old friend," sang Simon and Garfunkle, "I've come to talk to you
again." Indeed, darkness can be a friend. "For the night," wrote the
poet Lord Byron, "shows stars and women in a better light." Darkness
is not the absence of light but the silence in the song of light.
This is a season when we are drawn to the light. Some of us fly to
Miami. Some of us fly to the bright white light of a morning skiing.
Some of us fly our souls to prayer and pews. God doesn't take credit
cards but in this season almost everyone else does. Unfortunately,
some of us not only don't have anywhere to fly, we don't even have
anywhere to crawl out of the cold. In our own urge to get to the
light, let us not forget those who are left in the dark. Let us light
a candle by being one. Lending a light is like lending a hand. It
lifts spirits. And raises ours.
One of the most memorable Hanukahs I ever spent was one when my family
really didn't have much. And we had everything because we had each
other. My brother and I each got a flannel shirt that year. And one
thing more. We got the memory of seeing the reflection of light in
each other's eyes as we lit candles. No matter how dark the night
gets, I still cling to that reflection. "God gave us memories," said
Sir James M. Barrie, who wrote Peter Pan, "that we might have roses in
December."
Where we are reflects where we have been. Life does not leave us in
the dark although we often do. Every season in our lives lights or dims the light on
the season ahead. This season as we look out the window let us remember that a window is also a mirror; it allows us to look at the world and see ourselves.
We live in a world of mirrors. Physicists remind us that much of what
we know as light is a reflection. Reflect on this. Remember what is
good, and what is good within you, and in its reflection what good lies ahead.
"You've got to put oil in the lamp if you want the light to burn,"
said Mother Theresa. Charity for others is the oil that allows faith
to burn faithfully through the night. We are souls with lanterns going
in search of the light. “Let others,” says an American Proverb, “light their candles
from your light.”
May there be candles in your windows.
Light in your soul.